Answered Prayers

Life as Wesley and I know it changed on the morning of Friday, October 3rd. We have been trying to get pregnant ever since we got married - 27 months ago!!!! Yes, that is almost 2 1/2 years of ups and downs and heartache. It was definitely a true test of our marriage, because there was nothing more me we wanted in life than to be parents. Between doctors appointments, tests being done, injecting myself with medicines and timed "alone time" we were incredibily stressed. This was not at all what we had imagined. We just assumed that this was something that comes easily, as it does for most people. You can not imagine the hatred I felt for the teenage mothers and unplanned pregnancies I encountered over these last few years. It was such a horrible feeling because it is not their fault that we struggled but it just seemed easier to blame someone. And then finally in January of 2008 we found out we were pregnant! We found out on the12th (a Saturday). The world was a blur. We couldn't be happier. We were 6 weeks along and walking on air. I went for my blood work on Monday and found out that the numbers were low. I had a repeat test that Wednesday and found out that the pregnancy was most likely ectopic, as the numbers were not any better. We went on Thursday, January 17th to get an ultrasound to confirm the news. We were told that it was ectopic and we would need to terminate the pregnancy. There is no survival rate for the baby and it can also be fatal for the mother. Finding out that I was finally pregnant and then having to get a "medical abortion" was the most crushing thing I have ever had to deal with. As the doctor was giving me the shot that stopped our baby's development, part of my heart died. I have never felt emotions like I did that day. It was absolutely horrible. It was followed with months of physical pain as it takes a while to pass and even longer emotional heartbreak.

Finally, last Friday (Oct. 3rd) I woke up to use the restroom at 5:00 a.m. and decided to take a pregnancy test even though I didn't really think it was going to happen for us this month. (We had done an IUI for the first time but I just felt like I was going to start a period). To my absolute shock there were 2 PINK LINES!!!!! I ran screaming into the bedroom to tell Wes the news and was shaking so badly. I took a half day of work so that I could get my blood drawn before we left for California the next day. The results came back and the numbers were even higher than they needed to be. We had an amazing long weekend in California and when we got back I had another blood test done to be sure the numbers were doubling as they were supposed to. Those results came back stating that once again my numbers were even higher than they needed to be and everything looked great.



Now we wait for the first ultrasound which is on October 23rd. We will get to hear the heartbeat and find out how many babies are in there. As I said we used fertility drugs and there is always that risk of multiples. We would be absolutely fine with twins, but are hoping for just one as that is healthier for me and the baby. So, our world has been flipped upside down and we could not possibly be happier. We have told our families and friends and we cannot wait to experience everything to come over the next eight months. We thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers that have been sent our way throughout this whole time. God bless you all!