The Power of Prayer

These last five days have actually passed pretty quickly.  Of course, I wanted to know what was going to happen with our Sweet Baby but I really wasn't overly anxious.  I prayed A LOT and I know many other people were also praying for us.  I'm not sure if people were just praying for the health of our baby but I have to believe that some were praying for peace within us because we certainly felt it.  I couldn't believe how at peace I really was.  There were moments where I would break down and cry but it was pretty short lived because for the most part I just felt very sure that all was going to be okay.  I was very nauseous and that helped remind me that the baby was still growing in there.  In fact, I hadn't felt much nausea before Wednesday so I took it as a sign from God to keep my faith.  

I know I have mentioned on here before that I struggled with my relationship with God lately.  I think I have that worked out now and I had been feeling much closer to Him even before I got pregnant.  I realized that this is all out of my control and I needed to let go and let Him lead me.  I can't help but believe that this is why I finally got pregnant.  This also made these last five days much easier for me.   I just trusted Him.

This morning I woke up feeling a little nervous, but I pushed those feelings aside.  I knew it was in God's hands but he could still choose for this little life to not make it and that was where my nervousness was coming from.  Wesley has been my rock and is always quick to bring me back to positivity.  He is always so very positive.  I was so glad that he had taken the whole day off with me.  The appointment was at 11:20 which is right in the middle of my day.  I couldn't really take just the morning or afternoon.  Plus, I couldn't imagine going back to work after in the event that we got bad news.  

We got there a little early and sat in the waiting room for about 15 minutes.  The Price is Right was on the TV and I just stared at it not really thinking.  I felt like I could puke and it wasn't really the same nauseous feeling I had been having.  Rita, one of my favorite nurses, called us back and asked how I was when I walked through the door.  I told her I was very nervous and she said she completely understands.  We got situated and then she came back in with the doctor and another med student. The student started the ultrasound and then Dr. K took over.  The gestational sac grew just like it should and  the embryo grew just like it should but it was still all snuggled up to the side of the sac making it hard to see.  It took a little readjusting and I was starting to cry because I thought we lost the baby.  But then there it was!!!!! I saw the heart beating away and asked to be sure that I was looking at the right thing.  Dr. K said "That's it! Look how strong it is!"  I can't even explain the relief we felt.  The smile on Rita's face was so heartwarming.  As much as I am ready to be done with fertility treatments I do have to say that I will miss these people.  The nurses and Dr. K have been such a big part of our life and they really do care about us.  

I love that Dr. K adds little words to the ultrasounds.  He did this with the girls but it said "Hi Grandma and Grandpa from the Twins".  He has great bedside manner.  He said that all was well and we can stop worrying.  He said he would like to have another ultrasound in about 2 weeks but that if we wanted he could release me and I could have the ultrasound with my regular OB.  We decided that we would like to stay at the Fertility Center until after the next ultrasound just because I am really comfortable with them and while I also love my regular OB, Dr. Kanios, it has been a while since I've been there.  He said the baby would look like a gummi bear and would probably be wiggling all over at the next ultrasound and I do remember that from the girls.  He said that he won't move my due date from September 21st, which makes me 7 weeks, 2 days.  We scheduled the next u/s for Friday, February 22nd, when I will be 9 weeks, 6 days.  So much change happens between now and then so I am very much looking forward to that appointment!

Thank you to everyone who prayed for us over these last few days! The prayers were heard and answered!