Tonight I talked to my Aunt Sharon who was a labor and delivery nurse. I wanted her opinion on my delivery situation. Like I said before, I trust my doctor but I also know that Aunt Sharon would tell me the complete truth. We discussed the situation and with everything the way that it is she also recommended that I have a c-section. So unless Stella decides to flip over between now and D-day that is what I will be doing. I am going to take any time I have to let this sink in and get myself ready for this. I know that some people might think that I'm being ridiculous because people do this every day. Honestly, I am completely terrified of it. The thought of my stomach being cut open completely freaks me out. Besides that and really more importantly I don't like the idea of all of the drugs and the fact that I will not be able to hold my babies right away. That actually breaks my heart more than anything. I really wanted to hold them and feed them immediately and I don't think that can happen with a c-section.
Wes knows all of my concerns and he has reassured me that he will be with me every step of the way and that he will hold my hand. I think he is secretly excited about this because once I go into labor they will be born much quicker than if he had to wait for me to deliver them naturally. He can hardly stand the waiting. Ever since we saw the 3-D ultrasound pics he is so giddy and cannot wait for them to be here. I have to keep reminding him that we want them to stay in my belly a while longer so they can grow. I know his head knows this but his heart is telling him that he just wants to meet his daughters and hold them for the first time. He is going to be such an amazing Daddy!!!!!
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