Final Pregnancy Thoughts

As I'm finishing this most amazing journey I've been on for the last 36 months I have a few final thoughts.

*What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I thought that there would never be an end to our heartbreak over our fertility troubles. So many months of ups and downs and sadness only proved to bring Wes and I closer. I also found that I am stronger than I ever thought I was. I may have been sad but I got through it and now see the light at the end of the tunnel.

*A woman's body is amazing. Creating human life is hard work and our bodies just know how to do it! It blows my mind every time I see my girls on the ultrasound. There are two living, growing, developing children in my stomach. And they are pretty big too! I NEVER would have thought that my stomach could stretch as big as it did (of course, not without stretch marks). My last measurement gave me a sexy 44 inch waistline!

*We are about to enter the crazy, amazing, scary, exciting, rewarding life of parenting. This is truly the only thing that I can come up with that is completely permanent. Nothing in the world can change the fact that we are these little girls' mommy and daddy. This is a job that we have wanted for so long and will never ever take for granted. It makes me sad to think that so many children are born without their parents thinking about this. It is a lifelong commitment that should never be chosen lightly.

*Pregnant bellies are fascinating to people. I do agree that it is amazing, but it also happens millions of times. This is one thing that has been more of a negative of pregnancy for me. I truly feel uncomfortable when people point, stare or make a big deal of my big belly. I know it is big, but I'm not a freak show. I also know that people have good intentions, but some of the comments that are meant to be a compliment come out much different. Ex. "I've just never seen a belly so HUGE!!!!!" I got that one at Old Navy the other day.....very uplifting let me tell you! And finally the desire to touch another person's pregnant belly is not something I have ever felt so the constant need for other people to touch me is uncomfortable. This week for the first time I was groped by two strangers. The first lady was at the mall and while she did ask she was already reaching for my stomach so what could I say. I also thought she would just touch it but instead she was rubbing it and telling my babies to kick her. She left her hands there for an uncomfortable amount of time. AWKWARD! The second time was at the greenhouse. One of the workers came out and I could see her staring at my stomach so I kind of tried to turn away but she just put her (dirty from working) hands on both sides of my stomach and started rubbing. I gave a half laugh and smiled but tried to step back a little. She reached out again and continued to rub. Gives me the creeps!

Things about pregnancy I will NOT miss:
*Belly touchers, pointers, starers, commenters
*Swollen hands and feet (which are also numb and itchy)
*Peeing 25 times a day and 10 times a night
*Leg cramps
*Braxton Hicks contractions
*Not being able to find a comfortable position to sleep or sit
*Sleeping on my side
*Not being able to drink fountain Diet Coke....I don't miss other pop much but that I do miss!

Things about pregnancy I will miss:
*Feeling my miracles move inside me
*Seeing them on an ultrasound
*Hearing their heartbeats wooshing so strongly
*Wes kissing or talking to my belly/his daughters
*Being able to eat all that I want. I do this normally but now everyone smiles and thinks it's fine. I love my ice cream that is for sure!!!!
*Finally, anticipation......this both kills me and thrills me. As much as the waiting is getting to me, there will never be a bigger day in my life than next Wednesday. Yes, I will probably have more children, but going from no kids to twins is the most life changing moment we will ever experience. I have loved dreaming about it and talking about it with Wes. Trying to picture our girls and what our life will be like is so exciting.

All in all, I had an AMAZING pregnancy with very few problems. I am so ready for this new life of ours to begin!