Weight Worries

I've hesitated to write this post for a while because most people will not understand. The weight I'm talking about is mine. Breastfeeding twins literally sucks the life out of you. I've read that mothers burn 1,500-2,000 calories a day breastfeeding two babies. That is almost the daily caloric intake for a normal adult. I want to clarify that I eat everything in sight and still I cannot stop the weight from falling off. At first, I was thrilled. I didn't have to do anything and the weight was coming off. Now, I'm concerned. I can't make it stop. I am down to about 100 pounds. A healthy weight for me is about 115. I'm a small person. But now it is ridiculous. I look malnourished and I've had to replace pretty much my whole wardrobe. That is an expensive thing to do. I bruise easy because there is not much fat on my body so barely bumping into something can leave a pretty nasty bruise.

I worry because I don't want to cause any more health issues for me. We want to have another baby at some point and I know that drastic weight change can really throw a woman off her cycle. And Lord knows I'm already pretty far from a normal cycle as it is. I'm hoping that as the girls start to wean off of nursing in the next 4 months that I will be able to gain some weight back. I have not been to a doctor about this because I don't want them to tell me to stop nursing. I'll deal with my issues until they are at least a year. I want a healthy start for them and I also want their food to be free. LOL So if you see me and think I look unhealthy......just know that I am trying. I eat everything I see and I do not want to be this skinny.